Need Stimulation!

I feel like I'm losing my mind over here! I've been off work for two weeks now and although I have been very busy trying to obtain those personal goals of launching the "fidge" invitation site on Etsy. I am starving for other human interaction. I went out to dinner the other night with a girlfriend and for two hours straight I talked and talked and barely ate and talked some more. I don't think either of us came up for air until we got in our cars to go home!

I am loving that I can stop and do things around the house when need be or make a run to the grocery with only a two second previous plan consisting of the thought " I need ice cream." However, yesterday it hit me like a ton of bricks. I need people!! I realize this is why I switched majors in college too. I had started out in computer programming cause I am one mega nerd at heart and I naturally understand that junk but being a hermit was hard times for me. Then onto nursing which was all wrong. I'm not even sure what led me there except that It was all about the people and somehow I ended up walking through the school art gallery and the rest was history.

I'm really enjoying my creative time when it is just that...creative. I feel lately though as if I'm not getting enjoyment out of it because it has become more of a money making necessity. I want to make the money at it when I'm not dependant upon it for things like food and shelter. I would love to be able to go back to school right now but my head is so clouded I can't even figure that out and where the hell to begin. Wouldn't it be nice if we could all just pick the job we really want and learn it. There would be no, "you can't get this job because you do not currently qualify." I think I would like to work for the local arts council. Or the Herron School. To no avail though, they do not have job openings. Poo!

I realize this blog is an open session of thoughts. That's what I do right? I am officially conversing with my computer as if it were human. It could be worse right?

Out Of Service

What do you do when your head isn't working? When it's one of those "blah" days and you can't remember anything or get motivated. Your mind wanders all over the place and all you really want is to go out with some friends and have a good time? When your thoughts are so blurry you don't even know if they qualify as solid thoughts or closer to something resembling mashed potatoes. Mmm, that sounds really good to eat. Anyhow, I found myself going to get online earlier and then sat there as the seconds compounded into minutes, thinking to myself "what the hell was I getting on here for? Was I checking my email? Shopping? Paying Bills? Going to Web MD to look up why I feel like I'm on the verge of early Alzheimer's but only occasionally? What the hell? I don't feel like I'm a spazz or anything but wonder on some days just why my brain decided to take a vacation and not notify me. That's just not cool. I could use a beach, some cold drinks and hours to waste basking in the sun too! I mean, couldn't we all?